What do you believe?
I have always been fascinated by the haunting neon signs that you see on the side of the road. The ones that flash off and on in bright colors and tempt you to peek inside. The ones that advertise palm reading, or psychic. I’ve seen it in many of movies where someone stumbles across a psychic or palm reader for one reason or another and is freaked out by something that is said or forseen to happen. Who are these people anyway? And why is that they claim to know shit most people don’t? Who believes and would walk into their space?
When I was pregnant with (12) I was talked into visiting a psychic. This wasn’t no ordinary psychic though. Her name was Kathryn and she was actually an old family friend of a girlfriend. She had been close with her family for more than 4 decades and had given many of readings. My thoughts were that if she truly was horrible, the family wouldn’t continue to go to her, or to refer people to her, right? After almost two months of pushing, I finally went, and I went by myself. I had met Kathryn once previously at a family celebration of theirs and she had creeped me out a bit, I’ll admit, and I didn’t even really know who she was or what she did. She was an older woman (late 70s-ish) with long thinning gray hair. She lived in an old trailer park and could very easily pass as that crazy lady with 200 cats that you usually find in a scary movie. Why did I go alone? Honestly, I went because I was afraid of what she would say and I didn’t want any witnesses.
4 months pregnant, I walked up to her trailer and knocked on her door. She smiled and let me in. The trailer was packed with random things and I had to squeeze my pregnant way to her table. “You came alone?” she asked kind of surprised. She pulled out a small tape recorder and set it off to the side of the table. “If you ever need to remember anything I’ve said, you’ll have this tape.” Um, ok? That was kind of strange. I mean, what would I have to remember, really?
So during my reading she explained that I would be having a girl (I didn’t know that yet) and that although she was planned to be my last she wouldn’t be. She said that there would be an unexpected death very soon but that I would be okay. She went on to tell me a story about myself that involved furthering my education, work, money, relationships, and my health. I asked her about a recurring dream and feeling I had about dying in my 30s and she explained that it was a warning. She said I needed to pay attention, listen to my gut, and look for the signs. After about an hour, she stopped the recording, handed me my tape and walked me to the door. She said, “I really do wish you luck because I think you’ll need it.”
There were a lot of things that she said to me that day that made absolutely no sense, but there were a few that have kind of spooked me. First, I had a girl. Not a shocker really because I figured she had a 50/50 shot of getting that right. What she couldn’t have foreseen was the fact that I was pregnant with twins and was about to miscarry one of them. I had no clue myself. Could that have been the death she was talking about? (12) was planned to be my last, however, I became pregnant with (10) 9 months after (12) was born. I did decide to further my education and, just as she predicted, my degrees were not what I originally set out for them to be. How many people does this happen to though? I lost some of the relationships she predicted, have gained others, and my health started to fizzle at about the time she said it would. When I hit 30 I became really sick, and in fact, almost died earlier this year. I was misdiagnosed and re-diagnosed, etc. I still have major health issues, and just last night experienced my reoccurring dream. I listened to my gut and switched doctors, that is what saved me. Why am I still having this dream? What were the signs to look for?
I looked for that tape a few years back and could never find it. I am no longer in contact with that girlfriend, and Kathryn passed away before I lost that contact. Are there truly psychics? People who can see the future and just “know” things most people don’t? I can come up with a million excuses and explanations for the things she said. There were just as many things that she was wrong about.
Has anyone visited a psychic? How did your reading go? What do you believe?