The Head Crazy
Deceived by my own doctors……….
I have currently made it to my early 30′s and am surprised at the long road that it took to get here. Life started out rough, slowly got better, and then took me back to the rough roads once again. I have fought my way through most of my 20′s and have made it out the other side of the decade with a diagnosis. Hmmmmm. Who would have thought? Well actually, I have been diagnosed with quite a few different things over my lifetime. Honestly though, I finally have correct diagnosis to which I can start to piece my life back together – or atleast try to.
Originally diagnosed with Lupus, I was medically treated as such. Soon I started developing other symptoms and issues that made me question the medical care I was receiving. I couldn’t figure out if the depression I was experiencing was caused by my physical illness or the other way around. Doctor after doctor diagnosed me with depression and anxiety disorders and prescribed me one thing after another. None of it ever worked and some of it made me worse. Well shit……Maybe I am crazy after all. Truly, thats the frame of mind I was in and still find myself visiting every now and then.
It wasn’t until the beginning of 2010 that I finally woke up. My brain finally woke up and said DO SOMETHING DAMMIT! So I did. I found a new doctor and made an appointment. Completely panic stricken, I hobbled my sickly ass into her office and was very forward with her. Going through a list of my symptoms, I explained that I did not want pain meds and that I did not feel that I had a depressive disorder. I wasn’t quite sure I agreed with the original Lupus diagnosis either and that I wanted a doctor to find out what was wrong with me. HOLY SHIT – I spoke my mind. And do you know what? She agreed~
Within two months of this first appointment with my “knight in shining lab-coat” I was having difficulty concentrating, couldn’t stay awake but suffered from insomnia, felt like I was dying and could barely walk. But dammit – SHE FOUND SOMETHING.
So now, here I currently sit having been diagnosed with both Grave’s Disease and Hashimoto’s thyroidosis (opposing autoimmune thyroid disorders), Celiac disease (an autoimmune disorder of the digestive system), Mitral Valve Prolapse (what do you know…lol…a heart condition and not anxiety after all), scoliosis, degenerative disc disease, and hypoglycemia. Fun stuff.
I have a long road ahead, from what I have been told, and have a ton to say. Why not say it here? I have three very active children that I adore and a wonderful husband. I have moved away from all of my friends to start a new life in the wonderful city of Las Vegas and have a family so incredibly crazy that I could turn my life into a movie. I have a twisted sense of humor that I use to make it through the day and my life’s journey has led me to look at things a bit different than most people.
I typically refer to my home as the Asylum, and you can read about its members on my Asylum page. If you’re interested in learning how I have come to this crazy place in my mind, you can read about my Journey on my Journey’s page. I’ve been urged to publish my story and I have started typing it out. I may eventually get there, I suppose.