The Head Crazy
Deceived by my own doctors……….
I have currently made it to my early 30′s and am surprised at the long road that it took to get here. Life started out rough, slowly got better, and then took me back to the rough roads once again. I have fought my way through most of my 20′s and have made it out the other side of the decade with a diagnosis. Hmmmmm. Who would have thought? Well actually, I have been diagnosed with quite a few different things over my lifetime. Honestly though, I finally have correct diagnosis to which I can start to piece my life back together – or atleast try to.
Originally diagnosed with Lupus, I was medically treated as such. Soon I started developing other symptoms and issues that made me question the medical care I was receiving. I couldn’t figure out if the depression I was experiencing was caused by my physical illness or the other way around. Doctor after doctor diagnosed me with depression and anxiety disorders and prescribed me one thing after another. None of it ever worked and some of it made me worse. Well shit……Maybe I am crazy after all. Truly, thats the frame of mind I was in and still find myself visiting every now and then.
It wasn’t until the beginning of 2010 that I finally woke up. My brain finally woke up and said DO SOMETHING DAMMIT! So I did. I found a new doctor and made an appointment. Completely panic stricken, I hobbled my sickly ass into her office and was very forward with her. Going through a list of my symptoms, I explained that I did not want pain meds and that I did not feel that I had a depressive disorder. I wasn’t quite sure I agreed with the original Lupus diagnosis either and that I wanted a doctor to find out what was wrong with me. HOLY SHIT – I spoke my mind. And do you know what? She agreed~
Within two months of this first appointment with my “knight in shining lab-coat” I was having difficulty concentrating, couldn’t stay awake but suffered from insomnia, felt like I was dying and could barely walk. But dammit – SHE FOUND SOMETHING.
So now, here I currently sit having been diagnosed with both Grave’s Disease and Hashimoto’s thyroidosis (opposing autoimmune thyroid disorders), Celiac disease (an autoimmune disorder of the digestive system), Mitral Valve Prolapse (what do you know…lol…a heart condition and not anxiety after all), scoliosis, degenerative disc disease, and hypoglycemia. Fun stuff.
I have a long road ahead, from what I have been told, and have a ton to say. Why not say it here? I have three very active children that I adore and a wonderful husband. I have moved away from all of my friends to start a new life in the wonderful city of Las Vegas and have a family so incredibly crazy that I could turn my life into a movie. I have a twisted sense of humor that I use to make it through the day and my life’s journey has led me to look at things a bit different than most people.
I typically refer to my home as the Asylum, and you can read about its members on my Asylum page. If you’re interested in learning how I have come to this crazy place in my mind, you can read about my Journey on my Journey’s page. I’ve been urged to publish my story and I have started typing it out. I may eventually get there, I suppose.
I love this blog!~ the pics are awesome…
dGb!
Thanks so much!
I’m glad you finally got a proper diagnosis. I’m chiming in because my mom was also misdiagnosed with Lupus, and was treated for it for over 5 years, steroids and all that crap. Finally got a doc who would listen and found out she has Sjögren’s syndrome. May you continue getting better!
Thanks so much for chiming in. Sorry to read about your mom’s misdiagnosis. My mother-in-law has Sjogrens syndrome so I’m quite familiar. Thanks for stopping by and sharing your thoughts!
Like everything I’ve read here so far. LOVE the name Thypolar.
I’m diagnosed bi-polar and also have a thyroid problem with apparently exacerbates the problem. So along with the ‘head meds’ I’m also on synthroid.
You go girl!
Thanks so much. Glad you made it here. The thyroid can be a bitch.
First of all I have to thank you for visiting my little corner…much appreciated.
What i read is an lady with much openess and honesty, really admire that…..I’m going to invite u to my FB, hope u don’t mind..xx
Thanks for visiting. I don’t mind at all. I just approved your request
And I’ll be happy to respond. Take care, I’ll be back. enjoy your writing as well my southern neighbor-
Miss R of Reno
You have a great attitude towards life
Good for you. I wish you all the best on the road to getting better.
Thanks a ton fnkyluda!
Wow. Can I just say that I really admire you for living your life with such positive outlook? Not many people these days have that kind of attitude. I hope you fully recover and continue to inspire everyone you meet
Thanks for the encouragement
Have a fantastic weekend..xx
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Ma’am, this is Marantha Jenelle, of GHOSTWRITER, and I will freely admit that the title of your blog, which I discovered on one of my favored writer’s blogs, was what brought me here. You see, I suffer from bi-polar/schizo-effective disorder, adhd, and severe agoraphobia.
But when I got here I learned two things…
One…you weren’t bi-polar…despite what your blog title led me to assume…
and Two…you seem to be…pardon the plain speaking…one hell of a gutsy, brave, smart lady, not to mention a very talented writer.
I got a strong feeling of “gonna tell ya da truth ta yo’h face an’ wh’t ya gonna do ’bout it!” type of person.
And man, I just found you, but you are about to be bookmarked so I can come back and “borrow” some of your spunk on days when my “get up and go” done did leave not just the county but the whole blasted planet…and without leaving a forwarding address!Hope you won’t mind me borrowing some of your “gusto” once in a while.
If you ever drop by my pages, I think you will find that “gusto” is something I am rather dismally in short supply of.
Please tell me you intend to keep writing, that this is not just a “passing faze” or “craze” you are going through, for you are both very talented…and very entertaining!
Best of luck always,
A new “fan”
marantha jenelle
Hi Marantha! Thanks so much for stopping by. I’m glad you enjoyed what you’ve read so far
You are correct that I have not been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder. My blog title comes from one of the many auto-immune disorders that I have been diagnosed with though. I have two autoimmune disorders of the thyroid that cause my thyroid to flip from one functioning polar opposition to the other. This is where “Thypolar” came from. I’ve joked with my endocrinologist about my thyroid being “bi-polar”.
Although I have not been diagnosed as bi-polar myself (partly being the fact that I have not been to mental health in over a decade), I am extremely familiar with bi-polar, schizo-effective disorder, adhd and agoraphobia. All of which run heavily through my family.
I do intend to keep writing. If you are interested in learning why I am writing and what I am trying to accomplish, you can take a look at the page of my blog that outlines my purpose. http://thypolarlife.wordpress.com/my-journey-here/
People tend to either love me or hate me. I don’t write to please others, only to free my mind of whatever may be on it at the moment.
Thanks for the words of encouragement. I will check out your blog. Welcome to my world of crazy!
you’re so awesome and always cheer me up. At least it’s only me that’s physically fucked up (bi-polar, thyroid, recent spinal surgery to replace a disc -yep degenerative disc disease) Yet you raise all of your kids with a smile, encouragement and the entire time I know you’re in pain.
You’re a hero to Moms everywhere.
Awwww. Thanks girl. I’m glad that I am able to cheer you up. One of the things that I’ve learned through all my medical drama is that laughter is the best medicine. Most people have difficulty finding humor in themselves and as long as we can find something that makes us laugh, that’s all that matters. I am thankful that I started blogging because it has helped me work through some difficult times. I’ve made some really great friends in the most unexpected of places. I have always used humor as a way to deal with the unpleasant parts of life but after I got sick I found that the humor helps with dealing with the pain as well. I became a parent rather early in life and my only goal has been to give them all the childhood that I never had. i refuse to let my medical issues get in the way.
Thanks so much for reading and sharing your thoughts on the things that I write. It really is appreciated!
Many of my good blogging friends have you on their blogrolls, and so I finally decided to stroll over here myself. I am glad I did; you have a wonderful blog here, and count me as a new frequent reader
Thanks so much! Glad to have you
I’m proud of you! With so many problems, you’re still enjoying your life. Best wishes for a speedy recovery!!!!
Thanks so much D!
Wow!! Amazing… I’m a fan already! Love it!
Thanks Syrah
“It’s never Lupus.”
Dr. G. House
…get well, stay weird.
F
but of course!
I’m glad you finally found a Knight in Shining Lab Coat. I hope knowing what is wrong helps you seek proper treatment and life change to feel better!!
Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read
I think it’s really awesome that you started a blog and are willing to share your experiences. I really love your honesty and humor. I can totally relate to a lot of what you write about. I look forward to following your ongoing journey!
Thanks so much for reading. Humor is incorporated in most of what I write about. I’ve always been sarcastic. The down fall is I have trouble getting people to take me seriously. Oh well, I guess you can’t win em all right?
Feel free to chime in and share your insight. I love getting other people’s input. Thanks again.
Interesting. I have have insomnia yet struggle to stay awake during the day also. At 18 I was diagnosed with Mitral Valve Prolapse but just recently and Echo showed that I do not have it. Good grief. Cymblata helped immensly with joint pain and stiffness. I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed if I didn’t take Cymbalta. Just don’t ask me to get out of bed before noon at the earlist! Damn doctors. I have spent so much money for years and got nowhere. There is actually a doctor in town who once wrote an article in the paper saying that most women go to the doctor because they unhappy depressed little housewifes. Bastard.
Wow, you’re seriously f-ed up, but I understand the struggle you’re going through with the medical community… I have an entire 2-part rant on my site about it…
Keep up the fight.
BrainRants: You say ‘fucked up’ as if it’s a bad thing.
‘Normal’ sucks balls. And the cells from your brain if you engage verbally with such.
I have a number of family members with medical fun very similar to yours–mine’s extremely mild stuff by comparison–so I can imagine a little what you go through on a regular basis. Your approach to it all through wicked humor is precisely the right medicine in your case, I think. Keep it up. Cheers!
With all those diagnoses, you have to have a sense of humor, and, Lady, you have a terrific one. I’m hooked and want to know more. Btw, I love the David Brent quote on your home page. That says it all in a nutshell. Thanks for visiting my blog and for making my day!
Wow! You are truly a brave soul! All my best wishes for you and your family. Look forward to reading more.
I’m glad that you got a second opinion. Thyroid issues run in my family as well. Keep up the great work you are doing here!
Love your blog!
Your family is fortunate to have a mom/wife with a keen sense of humor, an understanding of how the world works and who would take a bullet for them but doesn’t take any sh*t from them–it’s the only way to have non-jackass kids…I’ve done the research.
Now stop reading this reply and go take more family photos (with YOU in them!) xo
-FMB
hi there, thanks for stopping by my site, i appreciate it… have a great day
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Hi Polar! I nominated you for the Liebster Blog Award! I hope you enjoy it.
https://pullingitupbythebootstraps.wordpress.com/2012/01/23/liebster-blog-award/
Thanks so much! I will check it out
You are so welcome! Have a great weekend!!
I too realised that I was born with a prolapsed mitral valve when I was in my 30′s. Aah… so there was a valid reason for the chronic fatigue
Love your candour and the way you make your ailments seem like a walk in the park. More courage to you.
Thank you
Nice meeting you and good luck on your journey
Such candidness is to be commended.
May you give others the encouragement to never give up!
Thanks so much! and thanks for reading
I have enjoyed reading your blog. I’m going to have to come back and read more. Glad you liked mine. Your blog is very brave.
Thanks for taking the time to read. I look forward to your thoughts
Thanks Thypolar for the “like” on my post today. Glad to meet the head crazy. Love the “shining knight in lab coat” description. Will definitely visit often.
Thanks for visiting. She definitely was my Knight in shining lab coat and continues to be.
Hi Polar! It is a busy week.
I received another award to pass on, and I nominated you for The Kreative Blogger Award. For the simple rules and the picture to post on your site, visit http://pullingitupbythebootstraps.wordpress.com/2012/01/25/did-i-cheat-in-receiving-these-awards/
I hope you enjoy it! xoxo
I like you immediately. I have been a personal trainer and personal health consultant for 20+ years, and I applaud your decision to take you health into your own hands! Now you can start the healing. My first exercise to anyone on this path is “Exercise your brain”, to wit, you have done so.
Thanks for stopping by my blog. I also have a website: http://www.stressmanagementmagic.com. With all you are handling you might find a word or two that could help. I have a couple of “on-line” relaxations somewhere there!
You are now one of my favorite blogs to read. Create a beautiful day and God bless your sweet heart.
Exercising my brain is what has helped me through it all, so I’d have to agree with you. Thanks for your thoughts
I just want to say hank you for stopping by my blog and liking what you saw. I’m so rooting for you and even though i’m in medical; doctors want to make you their own scientific experiments thru drugs. So my thing is don’t be mad when I become certified crazy and start collecting my deserved check. Lmao. Seriously your still here and maintaining and I’m glad to know you. Humor, Family love and support, and of the Lord. You’ll be just fine and your attitude displays that and we’ll be blogging for a while
I use to work in the medical field myself, so I’m familiar with how crazy things can get. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and taking the time to read.
Thank you so much for stopping by my blog, I appreciate it. My sister had,has lupus since 20 years now she went through many doctors, many cures, many hospitals she is still in pain but she learnt to live with her illness. I understand very well how difficult the situation is and the same time I admire your courage and strength, Wish you the best and i become your fan, love your writing.
Thanks so much! Medicine isn’t easy and unfortunately sometimes all you can do is learn to live with things. Even having the diagnosis I do, they find new things all the time and often there is no treatment, just a management of the symptoms that the issue may cause. I wish medicine worked differently, but having worked in field I can understand how difficult it is. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts and taking the time to read
Thank you for the visit…have just been reading your story…my word!
So glad they have finally found out what is wrong.
It’s been a crazy journey. Thanks so much for reading.
Thanks for liking my “Fake it Till You Make it” post! I’ve really enjoyed learning about you, and wish you nothing but continually improving health and endless happiness. I absolutely love the descriptions of your kids…especially (12).
Count me now amongs the fellow crazies…
Hello jill, can you do me a favor? Can we exchange blog links?
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Thanks in advance!
Hi there, thanks for checkin my blog! My fairly new diagnosis is Hashimoto’s just after my 2 year old was born. Every time I think about that word I think hunch back, hunch back!!! It’s good to rely on our sense of humor!!! We must.
It explains why after a night of insomnia I feel like I’ve been hit by an 18 wheeler when other people would be able to function with a cup of coffee or two…or three throughout the day.
Best to you, Stephanie
Glad you finally got the diagnoses figured out, but what a list! Hope your new doctor can help you deal with the problems and give you the proper meds to make you feel better.
Hi, I am so pleased that you stuck to your guns and got a diagnoses well done you. Thank you for liking my post, your journey makes mine look like a Sunday morning trip to the news agents!! I wish you well and I wish you happy!! xxxx
Hi Cee, just letting you know that I added you on my blogroll.
Hello my dear, first I wish to let you know that I am very impressed with your blog, one of many I know, but the way you write, you’re HONEST, it’s so refreshing. Sure poetic has it’s place, but when someone speaks (writes), from the heart, it’s completely different.
GOD BLESS YOU and I’ll be visiting again 
I’m glad that you took the time to pay my blog a visit, and thankful because from your “like”, I was able to visit yours. So, glad I paid your blog a visit.
Love the honesty in your blog and am looking forward to reading more.
What a tale! I just stumbled on your blog and I was very taken by your enthusiasm! Life has a way of throwing you all kinds of craziness and the measure of the person of their ability to take all of that madness and use it to strengthen their soul. You seem to have a very strong soul! I commend you!
Hello. Thank you so much for appreciating my post. I admire you for fighting for the woman you want to be. Only in struggle, we find the worth of the most ordinary thing. You are a woman of strength and you are inspiring.
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Holy cow. I’m so glad you got a proper diagnos(e)s.
i hope I will be a good doctor like that one day – lupus treatment is no fun, and even less so when you don’t need it!
thank you for visiting . . . and of course, great name.
xoxo
Lola
Love your Blog! It’s full of some great info for the Vegas newbie, like myself. I also love your kick-ass determination with regard to your health. No doubt in my mind that you’re going to use your amazing sense of self to beat whatever comes your way! Looking forward to reading more of your stuff!
Wow thanks for visiting me so I could ‘find’ you. What a story! Look forward to reading about your journey…it’s a challenging one but from here, Las Vegas, three lovely children and a fab husband sound helpful in having some great moments
thank you for stopping by! I like the name thypolar, sounds like you’ve been on quite a journey and have come a long way. and oh how we all have some baggage on our twisted travels that can take us to quite the strange place! glad to have taken a peak into your life and continued adventures
cheers.
Rivky
An Amazing story. I am wishing you all the best in your journey.
Wow so glad you finally got a real diagnosis and what sounds like a good Doc! That is half the battle! I wish you all the best and look forward to following your journey!
Hi I have nominated you for The Beautiful Blogger Award. Check out the post here…
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